someone told me something recently:

'it seem like you are used to being single,
and if u were to get into a relation now
there will be expectation which u can't reach.'


i won't deny what she say is true, for example:
i wouldn't know where should i date her to,
how should entertain her in order to keep her away from bored-ness.


but still at times im fear and envy.

single fear of loneliness,
loneliness bring emptiness near.

yet friends are there, forever.